Mommy is the most common yet most versatile name one can have. "Momma" as my sweet, rotten little babies call me has included, but is not limited to:
Caregiver (the one and only!)
Nurse
Teacher
Maid
Chef
Chauffer
Entertainment
Narrator
Author
Artist
Handyman
Dentist
Personal shopper
Snuggle bug extraordinaire
Ghost hunter/monster exterminator
Secret keeper
Body guard
Referee
and, oh...about a MILLION other things! I love my children more than I could have ever imagined possible. Like seriously, LOVE them, it's an obsessive problem I have, don't judge me, I'm working on it.
As I clearly do just about anything and everything for my babies I find it SO difficult to keep my identity in tact. Who am I? I am so many things for so many different reasons, I often struggle with who I am these days. Life is an ever-changing event. When I think about who I was 10 years ago I feel like I'm picturing someone else, someone who certainly doesn't exist these days!
But before I let this get overwhelming or depressing (I was pretty fun 10 years ago!) I think about who I am now...who God has made for this moment in my life. This season has called for ME, who I have become through the years of being single, being married, teaching, doing missions, straying from God's word but finding my way back, becoming a mommy, becoming a mommy of 2, accepting my pitfalls, and realizing that my life is not my own.
My life is HIS. My children are HIS. My heart is HIS. I don't need to walk through this life with an identity struggle, I need to walk through this life with the realization that my identity is in God. He created me for a reason and with purpose. Though that reason gets fuzzy at times - am I supposed to be spending my days in sweat pants, cutting up hotdogs, singing the alphabet 100 times and changing dirty diapers?! - I guess so. This is my season - they call me, mommy.
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